Where the Title Comes From...

When the house is quiet and I'm sitting by myself, I want to eat.

When I'm sitting down to spend time listening to the Lord and learning from His word, my mind often turns to food.

But nothing awaits me there.  My desire is to be satisfied in the morning by His unfailing love so I may sing for joy and be glad all my days (Psalm 90:14).  And to quit trying to satisfy myself with anything else.

Today seems like a good day to commit to the journey.  When this brown couch and keyboard call my name in the afternoon the battle in my mind is easier to fight.  Here, the thoughts of God's word and Bible teachers I have listened to come together and I can put them on "paper" and refresh my mind and sink the words in deeper.  Fill up.

So many times other sources are where I have searched.  Acceptance from others, books, church work.  But my biggest weakness is food.  Kind of odd.  To expect a lifeless thing to nurse my wounds.  When my sweet tooth and carb cravings encourage me I indulge and am satisfied for a moment.  The moment passes and there is defeat.  Shame.  Acceptance.

A sin that clings.  Choosing to be satisfied by anyone other than the God who created me to crave Him.

I have been blogging for a number of months now, but it seems that it will be more purposeful for a time.  I am committing to a 30 day journey.  Not one that's been crafted by anyone but the God I called on this morning after a day of feeling like I failed.  He seems to be urging me to share my story. I pray that if you relate to any of these words you might join me.  That we can encourage each other, pray for each other, and know that we are not walking alone.

I know I can't be the only one.
I know how embarrassing it is to say it out loud sometimes.
I know how lonely it is to think no one else will understand you.
I know the defeat of falling into the pit one day and struggling to climb out the next.
I know the feeling of victory and then the conscious choice to walk into sin shortly after.
I know what if feels like to wake up with only one thing on your mind and have it weigh heavy all day.
And I know there is One who is walking with us and ready to rejoice with us on the other side.   Did you see it in Psalm 90:14?  His love is unfailing!

I pray this journey would encourage you whether you are ready to open yourself up to it or not.  That God's words might renew us and refresh us each day.  That we would be filled by His love and nothing else.  And as I move forward I will be praying for those who struggle with me.  I don't know you by name but I know there is One who does. Satisfied by Love.  That's where I'm headed for the next 30 days.  And I pray it is only the beginning.

Oh Father, may we be satisfied by only You.  And may we choose to seek it in only You.