What Are You Afraid Of?

I received this question today as a preview to a book I am reading: What Women Fear. The challenge seems to be narrowing it to one...

I am afraid that in those weeks when grocery money seems scarce, there will be nothing.  I am afraid that when our one car sputters its last we will have no transportation.  I am afraid that if I offer my time or gifts to serve at our church I will fail.  I am afraid that when I fail I will make those I serve with look bad.  I am afraid that my family will not know the joy of a relationship with Christ as I do.  And I am afraid that my fear will keep me from becoming who God has purposed for me to be.

Ahh...when I look at these I see it.  The one thing.  I am afraid that God will not come through. That those things he promises aren't really real.

I doubt he'll provide.
I doubt I am usable.
I doubt he desires all to know his salvation.
I doubt I have value.
I doubt that he really works for the good of those who love him.
I doubt there is really something that I was created for.

The definition of insecurity in So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore is, "Insecurity refers to a profound sense of self-doubt--a deep feeling of uncertainty about our basic worth and our place in the world.  Insecurity is associated with chronic self-consciousness, along with a chronic lack of confidence inourselves and anxiety about our relationships."

Do you see it too?  All the time self is mentioned?  Don't fear and insecurity both come from a wrong perspective?  When I am afraid, when I feel self-conscious, when I am uncertain, I am looking at me.  Not the Creator of me.  The Author of truth.  The One who knows my gifts and has created me for specific good works.  The One who has created me to know Him and to bring Him glory.  The One who takes dust and turns it into life.  The One who takes life and turns it into dust.

So as I enter this fear-facing journey I hope for a new perspective.  That like David I will truly be able to say,

"The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear?  The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid?  Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident."

Amen, Lord.  Amen.

Continuing to give thanks this Monday...
#37 A week with no naps
#38 Return to napping
#39 My daughter taking steps all by herself
#40 Walking for an hour and a half around only one block
#41 Husband's overtime
#42 Sharing life with friends
#43 Chocolate cake
#44 Facing fear with encouragement of others doing the same
Thank you Lord for these...