My thoughts are jumbled today. Not bad, not good, just messy. It makes me want to grab a box of crackers, head for the the couch, and zone out. Stop thinking.
But I'm not hungry for crackers. I've been down that road and believe me a whole box of Chicken in a Buiscuit doesn't lead anywhere good. What I really want is a quiet mind, stilled thoughts, answers. None of which can be found in the bottom of a box among the crumbs.
I'm thinking about:
How to show love to a friend who gives all of hers away
Desire to move to a new home so we can live among our church community
Comfort in the home we've made and not wanting to leave it
Perhaps having turned a corner of stay-at-home-motherhood and no longer feeling so overwhelmed at the thought of creating meals for our family and how the act of doing that-chopping, slicing, browning-keeps my mind from drifting to food (ironic I suppose).
How I want to write and would love to bring income into our home through it but I don't know how to write that way. Am I brave enough to learn?
How my mornings are filled with things that make me wonder if Anna's memories will be of the two of us together or the two of us parting ways as I drop her off somewhere.
To name a few...
What does He say?
Psalm 107:9 "For He satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things." Similar to yesterday, I know. It would appear that the Psalmist is confident in this one.
Or, maybe he isn't and that's why the repetition? Speaking truth to himself and soaking it in?
We are a home of longing souls right now. Uncomfortable where we are, waiting for what's next, wondering what gifts we have that God might use for His sake. Full of questions and waiting.
And He does fill us with good things, every day. So I can bring my mess of jumbled thoughts to Him and trust that those too will be turned into something good...
Father, when my thoughts are a mess, thank You that You can quiet my mind and slow my heart. That I can trust You to satisfy my hunger and fill my longings with what You know to be best. All You give is good. Satisfy me with Your love today...
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