"...you put yourself in a position of comparison, which leads to competition, which leads to an altered view of yourself in light of 'the winner.' Either you will be puffed up in your victory or deflated in your failure, and neither will shape your view of yourself in a way that will lead to glorifying God."
Angie Smith in What Women Fear
Feeling deflated in failure is not something I enjoy. Strangely, being puffed up in victory is not so great either.
But I read other blogs and look at their designs and think, why do I bother?
I see other moms with 4 kids walking through the church parking lot and wonder what I must be missing out on.
I listen to speakers or preachers or teachers and wonder why I don't get as much out of my Bible study time as they do.
I see and hear wonderfully gifted encouragers and wonder why it's so hard for me to approach people at times.
But today I'm thinking mostly of blogging. The competition there-not impressed upon me by anyone but myself. How my emotions have become caught up in how many people read or don't read it. Am I writing things people want to read? Things that will draw them to this place? Things that will encourage them?
Part of encouraging is sharing my story. Letting people see the broken hurting places. We remember we are not alone. But the real encouragement comes from what God teaches me in those places. Too many times this has been a venting space, too many sentences starting with "I" and a retreat is necessary. Back to the beginning. When I was learning so much in my quiet times that I began blogging so that there was a place for my words and so that others could receive the life I was receiving from God's Word.
So that's what can be expected from now on I hope. That as God speaks to my heart he might speak to yours too.
Thanks to Melissa at Beautiful Mommy Feet for the reminder.
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